The alarm on day two of exams goes off at the same time as yesterday, and I am already tired in a way that sleep will not fix. I stumble through breakfast -- poha again, always poha -- and head to the exam hall at NIAT Sanjay Ghodawat University knowing that the next four hours are going to feel like eight. But here is the thing nobody tells you before you arrive: the exams are real, yes, but they are not actually the whole story of what being a B.Tech student here feels like.
The Exam Day Routine That Becomes Your Life
By day two I have figured out the pattern. Wake up, force down breakfast, walk to the exam block, sit for hours, come back completely hollowed out, collapse in my room for two hours, drag myself to dinner, eat barely half of it, and sleep. That is the loop. The first day I thought I was going to break. The second day I realized this is what everyone else is doing too. There is something almost comforting about that -- knowing that at least everyone is miserable in the same way at the same time.
Exams are not the worst part of being here. The worst part is knowing there are only a few hours between the exam ending and you having to show up to dinner looking like you did not just spend four hours staring at your paper thinking about nothing.
When Classes Ended and Everything Changed
Last week something different happened. Classes finished at 2 PM because of some program on campus, and for the first time since arriving I did not know what to do with myself. A few of us just started walking. We went to the campus grounds and saw actual mountains in the distance -- like, real ones, not just haze on the horizon. Someone mentioned there might be a temple nearby, but none of us were sure if we were allowed to go, so we just stood there looking at the direction it might have been. Then it started raining. Not like a drizzle. Like actual rain, the kind that makes you choose between going back or going forward because there is no staying where you are.
We went forward. We ended up at a friend's hostel room, soaking wet, and someone put the kettle on. We sat there for two hours just talking. Not about exams or assignments or how much we are already missing home. Just talking. About stupid stuff. About what we were having for lunch. About whether the WiFi was actually worse in the evening or if we were just imagining it. I had forgotten that college could feel like that -- like you are not studying for something or running toward something or running away from something. Like you are just living it.
- Classes ending early meant time to explore without guilt
- Rain did not ruin the day -- it made it feel real
- Tea with friends in a hostel room matters more than productivity
- The campus has mountains you will not notice unless you look
The Balance Nobody Tells You About
I think the thing I have learned in one week is that being here is not about choosing between exams and living. It is about figuring out that they both happen at the same time, and you have to find the rhythm between them. Some days you will spend sixteen hours studying. Some days you will walk around campus in the rain and come back soaking and happy. Some days you will eat dinner alone in your room. Some days you will be in someone else's room drinking terrible tea and forgetting to check the time.
The key is not staying in your room all day. I am saying this as someone who wants to stay in my room all day. I am saying this as someone who is naturally the type to just close the door and pretend the world does not exist. But I have learned already that if I do that every day, I will go crazy. You have to push yourself out. You have to explore. You have to go find the mountains. You have to sit with your friends and talk about nothing. You have to let the weather interrupt your plans.
Being a first-year here teaches you something important: it is not just about exams. Sure exams are real and they are tough. But there is also time for breaks, exploring, and hanging out with friends. You have to manage your time between studying hard and actually enjoying your time here.
What They Do Not Show You in the Tour
The NIAT Sanjay Ghodawat University brochure probably has nice photos. Smiling students in the library. Perfect meals in the mess. Sunsets from the campus. What they do not show you is the day-to-day feeling of it all. The breakfast that is the same thing every single morning. The exhaustion that sits in your chest after an exam. The boredom of your own room. But also the randomness -- the way rain can come out of nowhere and change a day. The way a friend can knock on your door and suddenly you are not alone anymore. The way a teacher can say one thing that makes you feel less lost.
I also documented this entire experience on video - if you want to see how it actually felt in real time: